Just Pass Me By

I am almost everyday on one of the employment sites. I am looking for a new job, and my temp companies are all looking also, you’d think I would be able to find something. I had a friend from church suggest a place that a virtual call center, which is a work at home. The problem with the company is it not telling you watch your doing. Changing my cellphone plan wouldn’t be to hard to do, I can make it unlimited but the problem is I would probably want another cellphone or a land line for this because I don’t want my primary number being my work number also. This wouldn’t be wise, I am not sure I can have phone only set at certain times to take calls for work.
I have been on so much looking for jobs that my memory is no longer working well. I can’t remember what I applied for because everything is starting to look the same. Sometimes I am not sure if it just similar to what one of my companies shared with me but ended up being unfruitful. It is frustrating to be with out a job right now because not many places are hiring and some of the place which are I have about 90 percent of what they want and the other 10 percent I am not familiar with or have used it very little.
I have been a applying for things I think I am a close fit for but might need a little more learning sometimes companies will accept people who aren’t 100 percent of everything they’ve listed. I just hope soon I get a call from a company I apply for. I have gotten a couple of calls from companies that are financial type companies I would be good at it but I can’t give them 100 to 200$ for their classes and licensing, so I can’t do it, and I am not about to take a loan out. Plus most of those are commission jobs and I think that would be to risky for my husband and I, he tried it and it didn’t work for him, plus I am not a sales person so I would fall flat on my face probably. I know no risk means I might never get anywhere but I also must follow where I know I will not fail flat out.

To bad Otis won’t walk on his leash like a dog would, because the weather is prefect for walking. I can’t let Otis by himself out side, because I worry that someone will run him over. I worry about the children who live in our apartment complex because people who live her drive like they have fire in their pants. I hope no children get hit this year, last year my husband and I worried about that happening watching how people drive around here. I found his collar last night, and maybe I will put that on him and then put him on the leash I have for him it fairly long just want let him reach the street.
We have a few speed bumps through out our parking lot but that does seem to encourage safe driving around here. I drive as slowly as possible so I don’t have to worry. Last night my husband and I went for a walk, it was beautiful. Hubby was a little worried about me because there are a few Lilac bushes around and those are known to be a problem for me. They are beautiful bushes but they just don’t like me. We went for our little walk it was a prefect day for walking not to cold or to hot, but nicely warm. I am a fast walker normally, I have two speeds walking very fast and fast. My mom is the same way my husband fast isn’t near my fast. Sometimes he does walk fast but his walks wouldn’t help me lose or control my weight. Today is another beautiful day and I might decide to either take a walk or go swimming later after he gets home. He has a goal to lose 20 pound this summer, and the only way he will if he works out and watches how much he eats. Probably going to need to cut down on candy and me maybe pop since I been drink it like it’s going out of style. I need to lost about 20 to 30 pounds to be happy, and I have been losing weight but not for doing anything right. Maybe to night we should walk the route of the golf course that a nice little walk. I am pretty sure there are many people out with their golf bags having fun today. It is wonderful out today.

Last night my husband was playing with my cats paws, Otis normally will attack him. I was trying to figure out why sometimes the cat will sometimes suddenly attack him. Then he turn around with me and try to play with me attacking my hands.I do not mind the cat telling me he wants to play, he normally does that fairly well by attacking my clothes and that don’t bug me. Okay I do not like being clawed or bite. I will let Otis bite me when I am a sleep because sometimes he wakes me up from asthma attacks. Grant it I was a little sharp with him, because I do not want Otis to thinks it’s okay to attack and I figure if the cat don’t like something my husband shouldn’t do it.
Otis hasn’t been listening as well as he used to, if I tell him No when he clawing he looks at me then just continues clawing. He does the same thing with my husband. Okay, this is getting annoying everything I trained the cat to do, since my husband moved in my cat don’t think he has to obey. He is clawing on things that aren’t his clawing place. I have had to take him and bring him to his scratch post, when I take him from the chair or floor I tell him NO bad, then I bring him over to the Cat post and put his paws there and tell him good. When my hubby not home he not clawing on anything but the minute hubby comes home he does. My husband tries telling him no but it don’t work. When I say no he runs.
The only time I play with Otis paws is when I clip his nails, I figured it good not to always miss with it and he won’t learn to attack me. Now Otis has plenty of toys he can play with so why can’t my husband just take those toys and play with him.
Now there is one problem we have, Otis Scratch post was supposed to be one of those which didn’t break, well it did. So maybe Otis isn’t as interested in his scratch post because it falling a part but it better then nothing for him. Now I need to find a new one but I really want a
cat tree, maybe some how I can get one for free and see what Otis thinks but it have to be big enough for a 20 pound cat. I would like one that more like a condo but those run between 80 to 180 bucks. I will probably need to save aside money once I get a job.

Normally I try not to write about political things, but you know it finally came to were I feel a need to. First let me say I think these gas companies should all be thrown in jail because was they are doing to us is robbing us blind. Now we all know last year that the CEO of these companies made in the million and billions on money back to them. Okay why do they need so much money, that they are making it so darn expensive.
They decide to cut down production so that they can charge me, which is wrong, they should increase production to match what is needed. I seriously think our Government here needs to start using our Oil supply in the states. Sorry environmentalists but we have to do something, then let these foreign gas company make us all poor and collapse our economy. I am not one for conspiracy theories but I am starting to think that is exactly what they are doing.Today in Minnesota we reach 3.85 for low grade gas. This is pretty sad.
Yes I understand that drilling in some of the tender areas for oil may harm the wild life if there is a leak, but if it is done correctly the wildlife will be okay and most will adapt to their changed environment. Now I am not saying the oil companies should have a right to destroy their habitat they need to find away not to destroy that and let them live peacefully together with each other. I think we just need to come up with something better, and since cars which run on no gas hasn’t been made yet or if they have they are so out of reach of regular people. Maybe the environmentalist and oil drillers can find some means to make each other happy. Maybe they can figure out how to do this with out taking a bunch of living space up for the animals or make it safe for the animals to be in the area.
There are many dealer commercials for spoilers, to bad none are of free gas for the life of the car, but sure that would become more money then the car is worth. Now with them saying that gas might get to 6$ a gallon this is very concerning, because most people like myself and husband we can barely offered gas as it is. Maybe we will have get bike of some kind, but that only works in the spring summer and part of fall. Winter would be a wash of wintry messes.
I seriously think these gas companies should start cutting into their profit and help the people they don’t need that much money it does them no good but prove they are mostly just greedy.

Today I got a call from one of the staffing coordinators of my temp company. I do not think I will take a survey again from them, expecially since they know who fills them out. I do not think it’s a good idea for companies to know which employee says what if it is a survey. I had a few issues with my company but didn’t feel like going into it on the form or with one of their staff members.
I just don’t trust them, when they say if you take this assignment we will still look for a better assignment for you. Especially, when they say things that sometimes sound contrary to what they said a little while ago. I have caught them in what people call white lies. Yes I am looking for a job and sending out resumes, I am not a sales person so I won’t apply for that. This week I was called and asked if I wanted to go back to a client. To be I didn’t but I would have had it not been for my husband saying you need to fix the muffler this week. It was sent to me as only a week long assignment only maybe with a chance of being longer. Considering my van needs a couple things done to it I agree and decided to tell her. You know I would rather wait until something better opens up, but in the mean time I am going to get my car fixed. I let her know I am working for him for labor and that after my car was returned I would be happy to go their next week if they needed me.
I honestly do not want to go back to that company it pays a lot lower then I want, and I don’t always get the hours I need. So maybe this will be a wise idea. During my conversation I told them I understood that the job market is bad right now and I am looking to. They told me when it was slow they looked for other clients and that they had one who they contacted who they think I might be good with. Okay, I heard them out, and I think it might be a good idea. I am honestly glad I didn’t leave any comments because they are less likely to retaliate because I said something.
Now heres my question I like to take notes when they offer or talk about different jobs. Why do I have at least 10 ink pens and a bunch of mechanical pencils but I can’t never seem to find them when I need them. It is amazing, I know I put my pencil next to my Hebrew Binder last night after I was done studying, but yet I can’t seem to find one. I am still stuck on a word, maybe I should see if I can find a online dictionary for Hebrew where I can enter my word there. Yes I do have a program that will let me type in Hebrew if I felt it was a good thing to do and have used it on a couple of boards.

I got a couple things of seeds almost 2 weeks ago and decided I would plant some seeds. Well one of my pots has started to sprout but the other pot hasn’t yet, I think I might have give it to much water. I forgot to shoot the screen door when I was out on the balcony playing in my dirt.
There was this big fat bubble bee, it’s amazing how huge their backends are and they still can fly all around. Bubble Bees normally do not string unless they are stepped on or threatened. If I were to be strung I know I could be in trouble last sting, caused my finger to swell up and I had to go to the hospital grant it, it was 6 hours later but I developed Cellulites. Let me tell you my finger where I got stung was swell up very badly and boy my hand hurt. Well by the time I went to the hospital my whole hand up through my wrist was swell up. The doctor told me the next bee sting would probably end up a allergic reaction. Well I haven’t been stung since and don’t plan on getting stung now had it been a thin bee I think I would have been worried. Otis decided he would try to get under the balcony today but I caught him before he did. I think he was interested in the bee because that where he was. That would look cute a cat with a bee sting in his nose. He’d learn quickly to leave bees alone.
Otis didn’t have on his collar or anything today, he sneaked out behind me, and I forgot to close that screen. I brought him back in, he comes when he is called for the most sometimes he don’t. He wasn’t happy that I was pulling him back onto the balcony. He tired holding on to the rail, but before that he needs his collar on so he don’t get to far away from me.
Well at least Otis didn’t feel the need to dig up my flowers today most of the time he likes to play in the dirt which is why I have no indoor plants. I don’t want to have to clean dirt up every time Otis knocked over my plant. Anyways watching plants grow is fun, I don’t know why but I like watching them grow out of the dirt and then eventually into plants with flowers. I wonder if cats ever need
progesterone.

On Thursday I called Management to my building I woke up with no hot water, but plenty of water flow. I had asked is there any reason why I do not have hot water. I think my husband and I are always the first to call and complain about problems in the apartment building. If something not right we are saying something. Earlier in the month we went to do our lease and our manager knew when we said there was nothing wrong with the apartment, she could trust that because normally we are the first to say something to them.
Well they ended up turning off our water, because when they went down to see what was going on with the water heater and boiler they found out it had sprung a leak and needed to be fixed. They didn’t bother knocking on my door to let me know they be cutting to water off in my building. So when I went to the faucets to try and get water for my plants and well lunch, there was none. Okay no big deal, I will handle it. They at least was able to turn on the cold water for the night. Friday I got up and needed to run over to the office and check mail in my building.
I came back and I guess I didn’t close the door all the way. I was in my office and started working on downloading stuff into my MP3 player. It nice to have it on the buss on Fridays because I can listen to what I want, and sometimes it just nice not to listen the radio or have to bring a big bulky CD player. Well I heard the door moving, and went out to see what was going on. The door was wide open and I couldn’t find Otis. Otis is a indoor cat who is not declawed, but he wouldn’t exactly have the skills to stay alive in this little city of mine. We live by 4 major roads, grant it one road is about a mile east of here so it not close but it is close. The other 3 roads are very close like surrounding our buildings, so I worry about Otis getting out of the apartment. We live on the first floor of the building.
I called for Otis and looked in his hiding places including the one where he hasn’t used since hubby locked him in, and called him. Well he didn’t come out of where ever he was. I went out in the hall way and 2 of our maintenance guys where out having a smoke break holding open the outside door and another outside door was opened. I asked both of them if they’ve seen a cat, Otis would be hard to miss unless they where blind. Otis is a large cat, and also doesn’t seem to like men a lot so I kindof figure if he got he probably didn’t go through that opened door, probably the other door. Well I look through the hall way no cat.
Otis sometimes will not come to a verbal call, he a cat probably figures I have to sleep. Now I know Otis loves his cat food and will come running for his bag shaking even if he has plenty of food in his dish. I decided first I would try in the apartment first, I was shaking his bag and calling him. He finally came out of the bedroom where was he hiding I have no clue, maybe he got behind my hangers and clothes and it’s easy to hide behind my clothes hangers. I have no clue, he sure did coming running out.
Well now the cat is found and I can get ready to go and meet my husband.

Why is it that the cost of living increases but our income does not increase at all. I have noticed that grocery for a while have been on the raise. When I first moved to Minnesota, and I didn’t get a lot of groceries I lived on campus but I got a meal plan and bought some food for when I was unable to eat in the lunch room. Then I moved out on my own, with out any food plan from college, I found my grocery shopping a semester ended up being a lot less then a meal plan and grocery. A week on grocery I would spend between 20 to 35 depending if I needed to get cleaning chemicals, sometimes I wouldn’t even spend a full 20 on food.
Then a couple years ago before I got married I start spending between 30 and 40, and after I got married about 50 to 60 a week. Over the last year our weekly food cost is anywhere from 75 to 120 a week. I am doing much of the same looking for sales and getting more then on sell then ever before.
Well food is just one thing that increase. When I first moved in her my water bill was just over 30 now it’s just under 40, electric hasn’t changed but there are more months when I am picking and choosing which bills to send through.
Gas when I first started driving was well under 2bucks okay that was when I was 18, and now I am in my early 30, so I can’t complain a whole lot, now gas is 3.65 a gal. I used to be able to put less then 20 in the car, now to fill up I am looking at, at least 45 if not over 50. Ouch. Rent has increased by 40 bucks a month also.
So here is my question, why is it that our wages are not increasing half as fast as our cost of living is, how are we supposed to make end meet when everything is going up in cost. My last really stable long term job which was almost 3 or 4 years ago, barely gave us any wage increases and usually they would find a way not to give it to you. I have been looking for a job but it has gotten to the point of where I can not take a job unless it pays at least 10 a hr in order to barely make it by. Even my catfood which used to be under 5 bucks is now 7 bucks. At least the cat don’t eat as much as I do.
My husband has recently took the HDMI cable and started paying that bill. The cost of Health insurance has also increased a lot that most people just can’t offered to help it. With our elections coming up it worries me, because it seems everyone wants to pass stupid laws which will just make things harder for people like my husband and I. They will want to increase taxes and want to pass stupid laws were everyone must have insurance but not provide a way for people to get it.

I thought working fast and with good quality is what companies wanted but I am back at square one again. Just great, how am I supposed to go back to college if I can’t keep working. Today my temp company called me to find out how things where going, they asked me if I was scheduled to return next week to my assignment. I said Yes at the time because no one talked to me about not returning next week.
Well I went to talk to one of the supervisors on my job site make sure I was coming back next week. She told me no we are to far ahead and would only have one person coming in. I am a little annoyed, I work hard and complete more then the other person does with no problem. I am a hard worker! I don’t mess around to often and I take maybe 15 minute break through out the day, just when I need them. So I work 7 or 8 hours every day and only take 15 minutes at a maximum. This is my chose not to take a half hour lunch break or two ten minute breaks, I don’t really need it for the type of work I am doing.
I was told all last week and this week slow down, I did slow down a lot. I even decided to cut my work hours down to 30 to 32 hours a week in hopes this would keep me working.
I get in on time, I am not late, and if I was I don’t think they realize it unless I came in after 8am, which I come in usually around 7am.
I work for a temp company, who placed me at this assignment. The assignment doesn’t use any of my skills, and it well frankly honestly not something I wanted to do, but I did it to help out my company. Even though I dislike what I was doing I worked with the same level of enthusiasms as if it was a job I loved.
After I found out they chose the other person over me. I felt a little annoyed because I feel my work is better then theirs because I actually work and normally get more done. I know sounds unkind. I texted my husband during one of my small breaks and told him I needed a personality transplant or something. To be honest when I am in a temp assignment, I don’t really want to make friends or try to make connections with people. Why go through the time of making friends when you might not be there for more then a month or two. So Monday they had a potlock thing, I went up but didn’t really engage into anyone. I am slightly shy, and didn’t know anyone there and the people I knew I didn’t have enough in common with them.
I know, I was told that if they needed more help I would be called in. I would like to know how am I to go back to college, and pay bills if I am not working consistently. I told my supervisor today that I was willing to in that position because at least I can pay for college and my other bills, and then get back into college. It seems like every time I get to a point where I can move ahead suddenly it like, I have to take several steps back. I have been looking for work but jobs aren’t exactly the easiest thing to come by right now.
I am not a sales person I know this already, I have tried a few times. To bad finding the right job isn’t like finding the right electronics. Once you know what you enjoy you can pick it out and buy it then it yours. Jobs are a little different, you can pick a job but you know you have to sell yourself to them. They have to pick you along with them being picked.

It seems like Spring might be finally here. I love Spring, Summer and Falls, I don’t exactly care for Winter months. The past couple of days have been nice, yesterday we had some rain at night but rain is a good thing for growing and it needed.
Even though I am sneezing a lot right now because I keep forgetting to take my Allergy meds, I love Spring, watching flowers grow and birds pick on my cat Otis. Otis every morning when I leave for work looks out the window for me. Tonight my husband came home and wanted to go for a walk with me, I didn’t exactly feel up to walking because my ankle still a little tender. I manage to almost twist my other ankle again that would have been cute. My husband and I walked around a very long block it was at least a couple of miles but it felt so nice. This would have been prefect weather for fishing today, it wasn’t to cold nor to hot, the fish probably would have been happy to bite.
I wish Hubby and I could walk like this almost every day but I know he don’t like walking. Walking is a good way to loss weight if it is fast and brisk, so is swimming. Maybe it will release some prohormones for us or something and make us happier. During the winter I start getting cabin fever half way through that does not go away until Spring time. Normally Winter means I do not go out much and no walking which I like to do. The severe cold triggers my asthma so I have to stay inside more. My husband doesn’t like walking, so often if I want to walk it by myself and that not so fun. I hope tomorrow I am not going to regret standing on my foot half the day and then walking a distance, but I just couldn’t pass it up when he wanted to go for a walk. It might be a month before he asks again.