Just Pass Me By

I know being crabby isn’t a pretty thing, and not fun for the person on the receiving end. I know being tired hasn’t helped me today. I texted my husband because I was feeling like I was in a pressure cooker at the place where I am assigned. I am so tried of working for this place for a week or two here and then off for 2 to 3 weeks. I been looking for a new job. Today my phone rang several times which I couldn’t answer it and no one bothered to leave a message, I don’t know why but I felt annoyed like what if this is for a real job one that wants me permanently . I need a permanent job right now.
One of the permanent workers for the company came to get some of the work I was doing with a other girl he asked if we needed help she said Yes, I said Actually no this is all we have lift. The other girl didn’t really like it so jokingly I told her I need the hours, right now. She said well he works here full time, I felt like tell her, yeah and he can do other things that need to be done also, and leave us do this work. This person has a second job where she brings in enough money to take care of her stuff, plus it helps she lives with her parents right now.
I didn’t say anything to her, but I started feeling like great I might not even get the full week here…. I want to work but just nothing seems to be opening for me that I want to do, or if I get called for something it falls through the floor. I know my husband was trying to be a loving supportive husband. He knows how stressed I been and everything I am trying the only thing I won’t do is work Friday night and Saturdays. I have reasons for it, maybe I should try selling weight loss pills but that wouldn’t be wise.
Tonight my husband came home and felt it would be nice to take me out to dinner and not have me cook dinner to night. He felt it be good to get out of the house, so we went to one of our favorite restaurant which is fairly cheap and good service. His plan worked good because I had forgot to take something out of the freezer and got home to late from trying to pay the stupid electric bill.
I was not happy with them. I have had nothing but issues getting this bill payed and they didn’t give me all the information I needed like, I needed cash to pay it. Had I knew this I would have made sure I had enough money on my card. So I decided instead of 60 they get 59 because the place charged a buck to pay bills. I called them and talked to a operator who actually did a good job of working with me and gave a extension on the electric bill which will help me a lot, now that I don’t have to give them money for a month.
We came home after dinner and Hells Kitchen was on, I was surprised when Ramsey yelled at someone for cooking chicken with beef. Okay I have asked question at many places I go because I have a beef allergy and a serious Pork allergy, and I hear often that they cook them on the same grill. Many places will make accommodations for me and cook on a different grill. I hate to say this but I would still ask the same questions at one of Ramsey Kitchens because I know the time I don’t ask is the time I would get very sick.

This morning I woke up from one of my frequent nightmares which make it hard to go back to sleep. I guess my mind been on a lot of things, but it wasn’t one of those dreams were the mind is working out problems. I woke up with a startle, and Otis came over checking on me to make sure I was okay or maybe just being a curious cat he is.
I am used to having nightmares, I should write a book I am sure they would go over well. I dreamed that one of the volcanoes went off, and where I live was being covered with ashes. I dreamed I woke up in the dream and saw the ashes thinking it was snow. I told my husband it’s snowing outside and it shouldn’t be. I went out in my summertime PJ and it ended up being warm outside and then I told my husband this is ashes. I have had dreams like this in the past, but this one actually made me get up to look out the window. I probably should check how things are in OR and Washington, where I have family just in case something up.
After I laid back down Otis came up to me wanting to cuddle with me. Man I don’t think his hot little body could get any closer to me then he got. I think he was trying to find himself inside my chest and gut, how close he was pushing in. Otis has gotten into a habit of thinking my couch is where I been sleeping for easier breathing with allergies. They have lilac here and they are make my allergies just not pleasant. I wouldn’t mind Otis clawing on discount furniture. Why must cat do that stretch thing, using there claws on what ever they want to stretch on can’t he just jump up with out doing his little stretching thing.
I finally got back to sleep, and when I woke up I was just as tired as when I got up. Ever have one of those days your tired so it’s easy to get cranky.

Okay I been bugged a lot about when are you going to have a baby. My husband and I have decided it best to wait a couple of years and then have children. Last night we went to a a friend birthday party. I knew the lady was joking with me. The Birthday boy’s baby was putting up a fuse wanted to be feed. I asked the girl holding her for mom if she wanted me to try. Sometimes it works with babies, sometimes it don’t. One of the girl told me, the only thing she wants is milk. Then another said, something and I said this is just fat.
To be honest, I am a little over weight or at least where I want to be by like 20 to 30 pounds. I have looked recently at diet pills but some of them can be dangerous expecially with one of my asthma inhaler which tends to cause my pulse to be high. Many diet pills have some from of caffeine in it which isn’t exactly the best thing for my pulse. Although I was joking with the lady last night, I was also being serious.
My husband and a couple of people a few weeks ago at church were talking about the height and weight ratio chart they have. I think it is unrealistic for me to be under 130, they think I should weigh 120 but seriously I look dangerously thin. I weighed under 130 for a while there and even my doctor was concern because I seemed to thin and didn’t really look healthy. Now at 145 I am comfortable and look good. Now I just have to get my self back to that weight and keep it off.
The nice thing about where my husband and I live is we have a 2 swimming pools in the summer, a rec room, with weights and a bunch of other equipment, I think both my husband and I got into a lazy habit because we are hardly over there. Maybe what I should do is post something on the community board at our church for a exercise companion, and say it free facilities. That might interest someone who is wanting to but can’t offord to belong to a club.

Ever notice how cats want to play with things they aught to not play with. I have learned a long time ago not to leave any of my jewelry on the bathroom counter because I know Otis will think hey shinny and got a string so I get to play with it.
He always has the attitude it’s mine to play with, even if it’s a book. It’s mine to play with even if it’s in your hands because it looks so fun to play with, no you can’t read that book because I want my paws on it and I am going to head but it, so you can just forget about where you are on the page. I think this would be what he would say to me, if he could talk.
My husband has noticed sometimes half of his food ends up on the floor, he will play with his food and then decided, oh maybe I aught to eat this here, but forget about the stuff on the floor, and oh by the way don’t even think about putting it back in my bowl because I will just flip the bowl upside down and put all the food on the floor, so you just better throw away the little bit on the floor.
I do not take off my wedding ring now my husband does at night, I am surprised that Otis hasn’t decided your wedding ring bub is mine to play with. I don’t have a lot of religious jewelry, but I have a couple of things. One necklace my husband gave me which is a star of David with a tiny cross in the middle of it. Otis hasn’t hasn’t lost that one for me yet, mostly because I put it in my jewelry box and only wear it on special occasions.
Even my laptop Otis thinks is his to play with, my last laptop he managed to take all the keys off of it. Now that was a fun little tasks putting back together and have you ever had to try to find them little rubber things under the litters on the keyboard, not a fun task. My current laptop Otis hasn’t done that to this one probably because I close it part way so he can’t get to the keys. Why is it that he got so many toys to play with but yet he insists on playing with things he shouldn’t like the electric codes, but lets not go there.