Just Pass Me By

We have a little brown squirrel who keeps visiting, I think he is the same baby squirrel who first started the try to get in to the patio window. Would you believe those things are noisy, and they make sounds almost like a cat fussing about something. He or maybe his mom has been in my potted plants I guess this year we all know why my flowers didn’t grow very well.
Today he was playing on the balcony trying to probably get Otis attention he kept climbing my the patio door on the wall almost walking on the window sail until he falls down. Then he runs up into the tree and cries. Not sure why he running up in the tree screaming or crying but it funny because sometimes it like he is looking right us me or the cat.
Maybe he lonely and wants a free meal which he won’t get. Shoot getting Otis cat food is one cost I don’t mind, but I’m not sure I want to get a squrrel food too. Those think are little pack-rats and probably would eat enough that I would ahve to get horse suppliesfor him. It interesting watch him play around and try to find some mischieft.

Well, maybe I aught to stop looking up when things seem to be going positive. Once again I am with out a job. There must be some kind of cosmic joke that including me right now or something. I only worked one day and they decided gee we don’t really need you. Okay, maybe that little feeling hubby and I both got before hand was a indecator that we shouldn’t have bought what we did so I would be more business professional.
My husband ask me what kindof work I want to do, honestly I am so discouraged right now I am honestly not sure. I am been rejected so much and I am not suposed to lose confidence, well gee I wonder why I have bearly no workplace confidence. It amazing the jobs I have dislike a lot are the ones who want to keep me the jobs I have like they don’t want me.
The sad thing is you’d think I would be able to get a job with all the temp companies I have worked with and they do plenty of employment screening. I am good with computers, and shoot I don’t give up very easily. I guess when I was told the other day let me know what I can do to make you feel more confident was a joke. Maybe I should have said How about don’t let me go after the first day if I don’t get it right away. Or how about please don’t hire me unless you really mean to hire me and keep me long term. I am so tired of being treated like I am disposable, and that it don’t matter who I am or what I can do. I am so tired of this stuff. I am trying to be positive but after 2 years with temping and applying and not getting anywhere I am not sure what I can do anymore.
What do I want to do, where my heart is I need a degree and can’t get that unless I stay in school and find a stable job as a stop gap. At least when I asked if I did anything wrong I was told no, the ceo just decided that the hours where not needed. That’s always nice. Maybe they will actually place me somewhere where I am wanted.