Just Pass Me By

Well, maybe I aught to stop looking up when things seem to be going positive. Once again I am with out a job. There must be some kind of cosmic joke that including me right now or something. I only worked one day and they decided gee we don’t really need you. Okay, maybe that little feeling hubby and I both got before hand was a indecator that we shouldn’t have bought what we did so I would be more business professional.
My husband ask me what kindof work I want to do, honestly I am so discouraged right now I am honestly not sure. I am been rejected so much and I am not suposed to lose confidence, well gee I wonder why I have bearly no workplace confidence. It amazing the jobs I have dislike a lot are the ones who want to keep me the jobs I have like they don’t want me.
The sad thing is you’d think I would be able to get a job with all the temp companies I have worked with and they do plenty of employment screening. I am good with computers, and shoot I don’t give up very easily. I guess when I was told the other day let me know what I can do to make you feel more confident was a joke. Maybe I should have said How about don’t let me go after the first day if I don’t get it right away. Or how about please don’t hire me unless you really mean to hire me and keep me long term. I am so tired of being treated like I am disposable, and that it don’t matter who I am or what I can do. I am so tired of this stuff. I am trying to be positive but after 2 years with temping and applying and not getting anywhere I am not sure what I can do anymore.
What do I want to do, where my heart is I need a degree and can’t get that unless I stay in school and find a stable job as a stop gap. At least when I asked if I did anything wrong I was told no, the ceo just decided that the hours where not needed. That’s always nice. Maybe they will actually place me somewhere where I am wanted.