Just Pass Me By

I haven’t posted about work in forever, it’s a good thing, plus I can’t say much about it anyways. My job I have to hold a lot more confidentiality because of who I work for. I am still there after 4 months wow it’s amazing it’s the longest job I have had since temping and it’s not temping. I haven’t messed many days, other then when I first started and a couple of months ago, I actually want to be there and look forward to going into work.

So what am I doing know, I work with Autistic Children. Some of the kids are hard to deal with some of them are every easy and for the most it depends on the days. I like everyone kid I have worked with for the most I like all the staff I work with to, I have to admit there is one there who just simply rubs me the wrong way but I don’t care, there’s always someone like that at every job I have had. For the most everyone I work with is very nice.

I get to play outside, in the gym and get to play all day long at my job, even when we are teaching skills so my job always fun, and shoot I don’t need a Slimquick Cleanse plan now because I am doing good at losing weight or slimming down. I have remained the same after losing 10 pounds from my high, and now I am staying at the same weight but losing clothes sizes. It’s frustrating I want lose about 30 to maybe 40 pounds depends how I look after 30, now what I disagree with is the weight chart of our government. I have weighed that little and seriously look extremely thin, and my bones showed throw, which is never a good thing! I doubt they take into consideration people who are simply different shaped then a little tiny model who isn’t portraying the true people.

I will admit the pay at my new job sucks but shoot I wouldn’t quit it for nothing because I love it. I think a job that you enjoy and love sometimes makes up for the lack of being paid a living wage, and I am okay with that. The nicest thing I do not have to hear any of my surprivor asking about going out and getting drunk or doing other not so becoming things of themselves which is nice.

It is simply amazing how gentle dad’s dog is, she always been very gentle since day one. It is clear this dog form a very young age was loved and treated with a bunch of compassion, sometimes to a determent of the dog, like potty training hasn’t been a very fun thing to do but she is still well behaved.
If she don’t like something instead of biting she will sit there and simply lick, when I brought this up to the vet, the vet said it a calming technically the dog been using. Instead of biting she try to calm, which is good means she great with kids.
I am just surprise she will let kids around her after where she lived for a short time and was mistreated. She hasn’t turned mean, or anything. This morning I had a couple kids run up to her with sticks, one had a long stick and asked to pet her. I said yes but first drop your stick. I didn’t want Shadow to get scared, because even though she never bite someone I still worry if she scared she just might. Not this dog she will take love from anyone who will give it to her, stick or no stick. It’s amazing after she got her eye shot out she would still be so nice to people and so trusting.
Now since she been living with us she get cared for very well, and not harmed, and never was as a small puppy harmed or abused. Maybe it not bad dogs, but bad owners for dogs who are naughty. I get frustrated when I hear they put down dogs because they are difficult to deal with, ask me I know training a dog out of bad habits is hard, and not easy but I believe it can be done.
Often children around here will ask me why can’t shadow open her eye, and I explain it to them. I tell them what she want through, some kids are to young to get into details because they wouldn’t understand it anyways, but some are old enough to understand. Today I spoke with a little girl who simply couldn’t understand why the dog could no longer open the eye, I finally just said that’s what happens when people shoot be-bee guns are dogs, they lose an eye.
Shadow has calmed down and been less clingy to me, which is good. I was starting to worry we might have a serious attachment issue with the dog, but now she cry not as much when I leave the house. Which is progress, she listening better on her walks and not attacking everything I don’t know about for hubby but for me it seems some of the training is working. I want to try one more thing that I saw yesterday on the dog trainnier on Aminal Planet, I been using a lot of ideas from that show on Shadow and it’s been working well for me.
Shadow was more attached to mom then dad, which is probably why she more attached me to I can’t believe it’s been 9 month since hubby’s mom passed away from cancer. I have experienced one to many deaths in the family from different forms of cancer. I think the worst was mesothelioma, because it progressed so quickly. Mom’s did too but we believe that she had signs of it when they x rayed her heart and found spot on her lung 2 years before she passed away. I asked the doctor if it was cancer he said he didn’t know, I guess they never followed up to that question. Well maybe they could not have done anything back then neither, because she wouldn’t have lasted longer and it might have shorten her life if she found out it was cancer.