Just Pass Me By

Sometimes dad doesn’t know who we are or he gets confused. Last night dad was trying to be funny but I do not think he understands what funny and what is not funny. It hard to watch him decline then be normal. I sometimes wonder how many more visits the grand kids will have before dad is bad and will no longer be fun to see. It hard some days watching dad at night or in the morning thinking he has to be somewhere that happened 20 to 50 years ago in the past.
We have been keeping dad up during the day so he doesn’t sleep all night. I am hoping that we will never need to have a home pulse oximeter or anything like that. So in the back of our mind when the kids visit is how many good days will there be, because these young ones will not want to be around grandpa when he doesn’t know them or is confused about reality.

Well I guess today is not a day for fishing for us. Oh well that will be fine, I going to need some kind of allergy relief. I hate the Air conditioner because every time it on I get my allergies in a bunch and hubby don’t understand why I don’t like it. He complains about it humid well it doesn’t feel humid to me or even warm now when I cook dinner I will probably put it on to keep the apartment form getting to hot. Drives me nuts how much he uses the AC it warm but not horribly warm like he doesn’t get that if we increase our usage of AC then our payment on electric will increase even if we are on the program which takes our payment over 12months and adds it together and then divide it and make the payments lower. Hubby doesn’t seem to get that if that goes up there less money to use on other things.
I do not like running it because I want my monthly payment to say the same.. So he can suffer, or get a fan on.
To bad we can’t get together with our nephew and do fishing today like we had wanted then hubby would not be complaining about the weather. Maybe we can do it next weekend, if the weather is nice enough.