Just Pass Me By

Sometimes dad doesn’t know who we are or he gets confused. Last night dad was trying to be funny but I do not think he understands what funny and what is not funny. It hard to watch him decline then be normal. I sometimes wonder how many more visits the grand kids will have before dad is bad and will no longer be fun to see. It hard some days watching dad at night or in the morning thinking he has to be somewhere that happened 20 to 50 years ago in the past.
We have been keeping dad up during the day so he doesn’t sleep all night. I am hoping that we will never need to have a home pulse oximeter or anything like that. So in the back of our mind when the kids visit is how many good days will there be, because these young ones will not want to be around grandpa when he doesn’t know them or is confused about reality.