Just Pass Me By

I have one more class to go and then I graduate from my Business Management degree. It has been a long few years and I have had to use plenty of web directories list, plenty of websites and I still can not seem to research simple subjects with any success. I entire words they suggest and get so many bad articles it frighting, I think things as far as good information was better when most of it had to be found in the library. The internet seems to be simple so full of useless stuff.
Oh well I am sure if I keep looking I will find something good at least this week it’s one article and studying for the stupid final exam. I hate taking test. I also have a presentation this week. My next step is getting my masters in community counseling or maybe social work depending on a few things and if I change schools.

I have to admit that I am starting this class off to a bad start. I am already behind on my assignments for weekone, and can’t get my paper started until I get everything solved on my computer. I don’t want to stat this process and then have nothing but troubles later. Last week I got a call from school, almost wish I wouldn’t have gotten it because now I feel like I have a case of senioritiz. I am so close to being doing with my business management degree and almost will hopefully start my masters right away and get it done with, I might want to take a little while off but I don’t really want to. I have taken a lot of business classes, I wonder how insurance marketing would be for me with my degree, actaully I wouldn’t leave my job if someone gave me a million dollars right now. My masters will be in Family counseling I want to help people, and my job right now I help Autistic children learn daily life skills. So I feel good about what I do.

Yesterday was a pretty good day, except I forgot to feed myself before the ceremony, but it was over by 130ish so it wasn’t to bad. We had a couple of interesting speakers and I was surprised at who the keynote speaker was it was a republican congressman. When I was told it was a politician I have to admit I was worried he’d be a politician that I wouldn’t want to listen to but I have to admit I think the congressman did the 2nd best of the day. I liked our student speaker, she was adorable to say the least.
What I can’t get my name isn’t that hard, but yet everyone says it ondrea, it’s Andrea, but goodness, every one always says on-dray-ah, never and-ray-ah which is how my husband suggest I spell it to get it right. But I guess it got said wrong again oh well, worst things can happen. Plus I am sure I miss say people names all the time too.
I have 3 and 1/2 classes to go and then I will get my diploma, then continue on with a master. I am so close to being done, I am glad but at the same time a little nervous. I am still disappointed in my mom for not coming, but I will have to forgive her and learn I can’t expect her to keep her word. Kind of need to be like a pond pumps and filter out the things which causes disappointment.

I wish fat burner was easier to do than college is, I been trying to lose weight and feeling a touch unsucessful. But the good news is I am very close to completing my BA in Business Management. I have spend about 2 1/2 years and took a year off because of family troubles. I will be graduating it looks like in September and then have to finish off 3 classes and then I will be done.

I have to decide where to go and what to do for my masters. Do I want to do Counseling or Social work is the question. I found out they are trying to change the laws for what I want to do. I am not sure if I want to do a doctorit to be honest, I am not sure I can make it through another stat class. Stats I have found next to impossible, honestly it one class I don’t care about.

I have to decide on one elective and have about three options to chose from, I am not sure which one I will pick. I feel like everything is so much up in the air and it’s a little frustrating to have things so up in the air. I know what I want to do but now with the change in law I might have to decide something else. I know Social work I would be good at, and I don’t necessarily have to work with children taking them out of the home. The thing is if I do social work and did Child protection services, I would be able to relate just a little to easily. Counseling would be good because I could help people process through things which are hard. Welll I got some time to pray and think about what would be good and time to talk maybe to my employeer. I love my job working specail need children.

Lately I been wondering what my end goal will be. I know I either want to do couselling or socail work of some type of program. Right now I am doing business mangagement. Lately I been debating what is the end goal. I could do drug rehab

at a few centers, but I know from expereince with my family it is very difficult. I watch my mom struggle with addition and my older sister, for some people they need the rehab for others like my mom they are able to quit on their own when they see just how bad things really are. Grant it, mom waited until she lost her rights to her children but that her mistake and well I forgave her a long time ago from and I am proud of her for being sober now my sister was another story is needed help. It is important if you have a problem with addition to get help expecailly if you can’t leave it behind. Lately my sister and I have been worried about mom because she starting to hang out with the wrong crowd but sis is moving near so she’ll helpfull be able to help mom stay on straight and narrow.

I have been going to the UOP for several months and close to be going with my

degree program, I need to determine if I want to do family counseling throw them or go somewhere else and get a degree in something else. I really like the UOP so I rather stay there, but the question is does their degrees in my State for masters fit my need.

Yep I am grumpy, been very busy and not feeling like i ma learning anything in my Stat class. I don’t like the professor at all he like a dirtylaundry hamper. Sorry I have nothing nice to say about him. I am very frustraited because I just don’t feel i am learning in this class, and I feel he hasn’t exactly responded very quickly to question.
I am just struck on the math program, and it doesn’t show me where I am going wrong with my work, so I am not learning that way. I have a friend tutoring me in the class. I have 3 things to work on before wendesday and one thing I do not think I will be able to complete. I have 23 problems and all of which i can’t seem to get my mind to work with. Maybe tomorrow I will spend another 4 hours on that part, after I complete the simulation. I know prof said don’t get stuck on it but here’s the thing it’s due now and if I can’t finish it it will bring my grade down. It’s already a C and I can’t offord not to pass this class. Frankly I think it would have been wise to take it on campus this way I could ask question and get answer quicker.

I have been very busy the last couple of class. Homework is taking me so long, and it’s statistics now. Yuck, that’s my first thought. I like math but I don’t care for this type of math. I have forgotten a lot of my math skills it’s been at least 3 yrs since I have had college math. The first night of class the professor kindly told us all homework would take about 30 hours a week. Ouch. Yep, some how I managed to get everything done I needed tonight, so I am not going to worry about doing more. I even worked on alex but hey I spend close to 4 hours. But then again that what been doing so I am close to 30 hours a week. Some days I work longer then the 4 hours. I wonder if home theatre seating would make homework more fun.
I think my husband isn’t getting it, niether is his dad. I made dinner, and clean the house. This is hard enough as it is with being in school where I don’t spend close to 30 hours, normally homework is about 20 hours a week. I decided I would cut back at work too after realizing dad is playing the helpless man role.
We can not leave dad at home for a full work day, he has pretty much refused to feed himself this is difficult on me because I love my job and I am the one who has to cut back at work. Before I found out about class I had to come to the difficult decision to cut hours. I hope I can work at least 20 hours aweek, but with one of the meds dad was given today I am worried about that. The med they gave him is the same thing they give people with atleztimers. It is to help maintain his memory. He has had memory troubles, which is hard for the family to deal with. I do not think my husband family realizes all the things I have done for dad or them.
Hopefully my husband will learn during the next 10 weeks that I will need help doing the house work, and putting away lift overs and other things. I have been telling him a lot I need help around the house, since before his dad moved in and I still don’t get any. He thinks taking out the garbage is a big accomplishment. Funny thing is both our homes were always cleaner then they are since we been married. Which is strange.

I finally got a call that was long over due. Well not overdue from the company but when you been looking for a job for 4 months seriously and for close to a year trying to find something stable. Now I will finally be able to work a stable job and hopefully get all my bills paid, and still get the credit card and college stuff done, so this will be good. It’s only 24.5 hours a week but that’s really all I can do with college and living with dad.

I am so excited because this is the job I wanted from the beginning of applying for the job, and then had the good interview. I was about to start giving up hope because of not hearing from them in the first part of the week, or the end of last week.  I consider today to be the middle of the week. There will be no Saturday or Sunday hours, and fridays I am off at 430pm.   So this works now I will need to figure out if dad wants to come to service on Fridays it means one of us needs to come back home and pick him up, but if that what needed I will do it. I will do anything for my husband dad. I will be working in the afternoon everyday and 2 days I will be working in the AM, which is great. I can’t wait for my first day of actual working with them. I love children and this job will be working with children with special needs, which is something I enjoy doing.

I guess this will be good now I just have to figure out what activity I want to get involved with at church because we been asked to transfer to the new church so I am feeling a little lost as far as that goes because I was doing children worship on Saturday, and that doesn’t seem to be needed at the new chruch.

I just got good news, I have talked about being back in college. When I started back I was told I would have a bunch of money to come up with next year, and would end up with a shortfal this year of at least 1700. I was really starting to get stressed out. I was trying to play with my budget and see how can I save at least 600 a month to 800 a month and where can I put it, so I don’t spend it. How would I save money for my laptop, which will be a Toshiba. I need a new one because the one I am on is just about filled to the gills, and is barely meeting the school requirements. I found a laptop I wanted, and decided I would save money for that, before I start the big saving each month.
Tonight I got a call from financial aid, to let me know that I had plenty of money lift over in my Stafford loans, when a few weeks ago I was told I only had enough money for this year. They raised the price of Stafford to 57,000 from what ever it was before, this diffidently be enough money for me to complete my year and a half. I don’t plan to us all that but it’s a comfort to know I won’t need outside help for loans.
I had my mud on my face waiting for it to dry, when she called sometimes I need acne treatments, expecially working where I do. I had to wash it off while talking to her. I am so relieved that I don’t have to figure out the big bad cost of schooling. She told me think of the poor college students, I told her I am already a poor student, to be honest, it will take me forever to get money saved for my laptop. I am hoping to have it done before the end of the ear so I can right it off.