Just Pass Me By

I can say I am just not getting anywhere in the job market, and kind of getting tired of all the rejection letters, but I still keep plugging away. Today I sent out yet another letter to follow up on my resume. Okay no big deal, I will keep looking. For the most I am used to getting the same general type of email, or no response at all, when it comes to sending out follow up letters. I will say it was a nice letter but interesting I have never ran into this with any other employeers, so I will give the person creativity points.
The person pretty much told me, they hired someone else.. Okay no intesting there, but they also told me, I pretty much should prosue music, because it seems to be my first love, and one day maybe they hear me on the radio.
I couldn’t help but laugh about it and shake my head… I was in class waiting for our professor to start our class, good thing I wasn’t on abar stools I would have fall off. Yes on my resume I includes my hobbies and music is one of them and yes it is one of my first love but lets face it that was a dream and dreams get broken. I not saying I gave up, I am saying that I have to have a job that actually makes money, because my dream hasn’t came true. Singing in church don’t make it possible, shoot and that an whole other can of worms… Now I do write and use my talents but shoot it a impossible career to get into. My end goal is to eventually get my master in councilling and use my music on the side. In the mean time I need a job. At least today in class I learned something I found interesting. I was told I should change my resume style or customize my resume for each company. Get their attention right away, okay now that’s a little hard.

Last week I had a interview. The night before I had to go to a informational meeting about the company. I decided this job wouldn’t work out for me after intervieing because I just think it be to much pressure it would be 100% commission and 5-6 months of training grant it during that time I would be earning money. The interviewer wanted to fast track me to regional management I believe it was, but after talking about the position I started worrying that I would end up with the potential of really getting into financial trouble.
Pretty much what it is was a loan on commission, which is never a good thing. If I where to flop it wouldn’t be me paying but my manager, the one over me. If I were to get to that point then it could be me having to suck up the cost of someone else mistakes. I am not sure I like that idea, I will think about it if nothing else opens I might have to work very hard at it and pray no one gets raid of their services.
Well I went to the meeting, and they started it a few minutes late. Ever notice, that it’s okay for a interviewer to run late, or for these companies to start things late, but heaven forbid you run late to their interview. I always run 10 to 20 minutes early, it’s a pain when they run 10 to 20 minutes late, that means I have sat there doing nothing when I could have been using that time for homework or something else which needs to get done. Don’t get me wrong I am not mad, I just think it funny that they stress being early and they themselves are late.
One thing I will do if I ever sit up meeting is make sure I can be on time, and if not place a call to the person to come in a little later. I understand getting caught up with something or other appointments running later then you expected and sometimes that just happens. Running a business is hard and that’s probably the main reason they are running late. I often get asked did you have any problems finding us, usaully I do not have problems. My favorite one is were are you coming from, when I tell them if they on the other side of the metro how they ask if it’s to far. Woodbury is about a good 25 minutes with out traffic and a good 45 minutes with traffic, it’s not hard to get to but when I do interviews I often get asked if it’s to far away. Now I will not work in lets say Stillwater because it the other way North and East and would take me to long to make it out there during rush hour.
I really hope this work at home job comes through for me, because it be nice to be able to work at home and cut out the travel time, and not have to count that into my schedule. Travel time seems to be the most tiring and draining of all activities I do. I love driving for the most but it gets taxing during rush hours. I know I need a job, gotta get supplies and cover living expenses which is hard to do. I might need to get outdoor furniture covers for my plants.

I had a interview on Friday morning and another one set up. I thought I lift enough time in between the 2 interviews. I guess I didn’t have enough time between them. It turns out I liked the first place I interviewed with but it wouldn’t work out because of how recently I broke my ankle. This could cause me a lot of problems, so it was decided that it right now wasn’t a good fit. Eventhough I was well liked by the interviewers.
Here’s what getting my husband and I, many who I have interviewed with have seen the administrative expereince I have and told me I should do, because I would be good at it. My husband said it surprising how people who interview you, understand this better then your temp company. Everytime I bring it up it’s always higher management excutive admin positions they have avialable. They want 5 years of expereince, well I got a good 3 to maybe a little over 4 years expereince depending how you count my call center expereince. I am so tired of working for temp companies and being treated disposable.
I have recieved a couple of emails in response to my posted resume on line, but most of those are commission jobs or car insurance or some other thing that I would have to get a certificate and spend money I don’t have. Now I know I am not a sales person I have tried and and trust me things do not sale themselves like some companies claim they do. I know sales wouldn’t be a good fit for me, but something where I am working with people and helping people would be great. This is why I was so happy with the temp company job being a receptionist. Well I guess it their lost maybe that how I should look at it. Not my lost, their lost becuase I am a good worker, and I will try my best to do the right thing.
My husband and I talked this weekend about a conversation he had with rabbi. He asked me a question of, if you where on a mountian and had a business thing you need to get to the top for. While going up the mountain, you saw someone who had fallen and needed help or they’d die. I said I would stop and help the person, I wouldn’t worry about getting to the top at that time becuase that person is maybe more important. Ethically this is the right answer but business wise companies would rather you just walk over everyone and leave that person their to die. Well I couldn’t be able to do that to someone, it against everything I am. I told my husband maybe I should start acting how other people act, but we all know I wouldn’t get away with it. It’s amazing how lazy workers can get away with being lazy but you get a worker like me and we get lazy suddenly it a sin.

Well, maybe I aught to stop looking up when things seem to be going positive. Once again I am with out a job. There must be some kind of cosmic joke that including me right now or something. I only worked one day and they decided gee we don’t really need you. Okay, maybe that little feeling hubby and I both got before hand was a indecator that we shouldn’t have bought what we did so I would be more business professional.
My husband ask me what kindof work I want to do, honestly I am so discouraged right now I am honestly not sure. I am been rejected so much and I am not suposed to lose confidence, well gee I wonder why I have bearly no workplace confidence. It amazing the jobs I have dislike a lot are the ones who want to keep me the jobs I have like they don’t want me.
The sad thing is you’d think I would be able to get a job with all the temp companies I have worked with and they do plenty of employment screening. I am good with computers, and shoot I don’t give up very easily. I guess when I was told the other day let me know what I can do to make you feel more confident was a joke. Maybe I should have said How about don’t let me go after the first day if I don’t get it right away. Or how about please don’t hire me unless you really mean to hire me and keep me long term. I am so tired of being treated like I am disposable, and that it don’t matter who I am or what I can do. I am so tired of this stuff. I am trying to be positive but after 2 years with temping and applying and not getting anywhere I am not sure what I can do anymore.
What do I want to do, where my heart is I need a degree and can’t get that unless I stay in school and find a stable job as a stop gap. At least when I asked if I did anything wrong I was told no, the ceo just decided that the hours where not needed. That’s always nice. Maybe they will actually place me somewhere where I am wanted.

First days are always fun, sometimes they are hard. I was glad the phone were slow there, because if it was busy it probably would have been overwhelming. My first day could have went better but it could have been so much worst then it was. I had a good day, and enjoyed everyone there. I do hope I can remember everyone names and what button they belong to, and who gets what calls. It’s hard, but I have done harder.
Lets see I have never answered phones for more then 10 people, not I am doing it for a entire temp company and there are about 25 to 30 people to remember who they are. I will have to study my phone grid, the phone wasn’t that hard to manage and I did start answering today after a few hours of being there. I actually enjoyed it and liked the young lady I work with, she seems like fun and she mature. Wow this is a difference from the last girl I worked with mostly. I am positive I will never hear about her very personal life, which is wonderful and the way it aught to be.
Lets see I had to go out and get new clothes because I guess I am not business professional enough, thank goodness my husband was able to help me. In suites I am huge, I really gotta lose weight and fast I am tempted to start looking at some diet pill reviews and find a good one. I am so puggy it sicking. I know I am not overly over wieght but I don’t like where I am at. I found a suite I was able to make into 2 sets, so this is good. Wal-mart always got great deals, probably in 3 weeks I will go back and get some more suites probably some pants set before winter hit. I got 2 skirts. Now I have a total of 4 business professional outfits if I mix and match a couple of things.
I don’t work tomorrow but that may be a hidden blessing I just hope this isn’t a sign they going to get raid of me Asap. Since working for my last temp company I have lost a lot of confindence and I think it showed some today even though I tried to hid it. Well, hopefully next time I go in I will feel more confident and it will come out in my voice and face. I know I did a lot of look small in my seat, couldn’t help it.

On friday I got a call for a job interview at a company, I had interviewed for a temp assignment. Well I got a call for a job with that company, not with some other company they would place me at. I had my interview today. I am happy to say I have a part time job with steady hours. I am so relived and happy. I did my interview with 2 people, normally I do not do well with interviewing with 2 people. I get very nervous around that many people and don’t seem to handle being under a magnifine glass with 2 people, and never can think of what to say to their questions.

While talking to them the job  was discribed to me, and I didn’t have to many questions. I saw exactly what the front would be like, because it got busy for them while I was waiting for my second interview, and well answering phones just don’t scare me. It won’t be the most favorite thing every but it be so much better then what I been doing and I won’t hate it with a passion. They seem easy to work with and I am positive I will never have to write again about sexual harrassement and not sure what to do since everyone thinks the behavor okay.

For the first time in a long time I am looking forward to going to work in the money! This is a good feeling and it’s about time something good happens for me.

Today was my last day at my assignment. I am kind of glad, I am getting tired of someone turning everything about sex. Today I was talking to one of the girls about pulling someone hair back and told her if you want it to hurt pull it at the nap of the neck. One of the workers walked in on the end of that conversation and made a comment about pulling his backside hair.

What I would like to know is why he feels the need to do this, at first it was funny when he first started this behavorwhen it was 3 or 4 girls. It didn’t bother me so much but know it just me and her, and he worst when I am gone. Probably knows I will tell him something if he continues. The other day when I was gone, she was telling me what he said to her after a religious convention. He had told her he needed to stop saying some of the things he had been saying. He’s a Jehovah Witness. She told him he was being a bad witness. Later when it was just her and I she shared a little more. I asked her if she felt he was more directing the harassment at her, since he is worst when it’s just her.

It is amazing how this guy has yet to learn how to behave properly. He is married and has kids you’d think he’d know how to act. He is older then I too, so he should be at least half as mature as me. I felt like I was in kindergarten today listening to him.

Hopefully I will get a new assignment quickly and won’t have to go back there. I am temped to tell them No thank you, it not the type of work environment I want to be working at. I do not feel comfortable there but when they are the only hours I been getting hard to complain to someone else.

Today I was working by myself. I hate to admit this I enjoyed it and it seemed like time went faster. I was doing something different then the usual stuffing, so it made it seem like something new or at least different.
For the first time in a long time I didn’t have to hear about someone else’s sex life, this was nice for a change. I was just able to do my work listen to my radio and stuff away. I got everything done that was needed done. I think it’s due tomorrow, so it good I got it done the day before. Tomorrow I will be back doing the normal thing.
Maybe I should buy the moon and move there, I’d have a abundance of quiet and no one to distract me from homework or other things. I am a little behind on homework or at least not as far as I wanted to be by now, but oh well. Seems like my learning group has also lost some steam. This weekend was busy, and half the time we got back or I got some time to do homework when it was simply to late for me. I will have to see if I can get my self caught up, accounting isn’t a class I want to be behind in at least next week is what they call quiet week, so there will not be as much homework.

I am so frustrated with my job. I am not really frustrated with the hours at work although last week I got 20 hours and this week I got 30 hours, but that because I was just being slow today. I am the type of person who believes that certain things in life should be keep private! I don’t believe in forcing my religion on people but I don’t have a problem with people sharing or me sharing with them. I get a long with just about everyone there. Not a problem. I have decided while working there I would just take Fridays off while in College, but once I can find a better job I will probably work my 40 hours. I don’t know, I sure haven’t work many hours and most my free time is spent on homework.
I was at my work station today, doing my job. I can’t walk, stand, or carry more then 5 pounds. So I am lucky my supervisor is keeping me there right now, since a good portion of the work requires standing and a even better portion requires being able to carry at least 35 pounds from one place to the next. I don’t have a problem with this neither when I am healthy, and everyone has been helping get me the things I need.
So what am I frustrated with, I feel there is sexual harassment there. I don’t feel anyone but me see anything wrong with it, because everyone jokes about it but me, and well I feel uncomfortable. Telling them to not do it, I get responses of turn up your music. Why do I need to hear about people sex life married or single, why must I know how many times in someone marriage they been with their wife or have to hear that question being asked of that person. I just think stuff in the bedroom between a man and woman aught to stay there! Within the last couple of months I said something like, it smells like permanent marker. The guy who works near us said it was his stuff, and I said thanks for sharing. Then he told me I should see his underwear. I wasn’t sure how to respond other then no thank you but I felt annoyed by it and turned up my radio as loud as I could with out hurting my ears because they just kept carrying on.
I don’t know if I am right in feeling annoyed by some of their discussion, and honestly I would talk to my company who placed me, but I don’t want to cause trouble or end up being with out a job. I don’t have a problem with the people I work with other then some of the topics of discussion but when some of the managers speak or act the same way it doesn’t do any good to say anything because then I just look like the squicky wheel.
I don’t mind hearing about going out with people, having fun, but there are just some subjects that aren’t meant to be asked about. It’s not like asking if they haveauto insurance.

This week has been very hard. Started off Sunday with getting a call from my husband dad dad saying mom was in the Hospital. They took her to their local clinic, emergency room and then she was transfered to Rochester. Mom was coughing up a lot of phlem she has Pneumonias, they thought it was that getting worst.
There hospital sent them to Rochester because a spot in her lung had seemed to grow, now we are worried, because things like that aught to not grow.
Monday went okay I guess, nothing real major happened other then waiting for the doctors and they still didn’t know what was happening. Yesterday I should have stayed home and hide. I work in a warehouse kind of mass mail place. I managed to step on some cardboard which slipped and then I tripped I landed on my Knee and jarred my hip. Ouch that hurt, bad enough to keep me down. I didn’t even realized my arm was totally bruised on the top it didn’t hurt until today. I guess that what I get a delayed response. I had to go to the Doctor make sure it wasn’t seriously damaged. We all know wait to long when injured at work you might not get help covering it. My supervisor was worried about my arm a lot more then I was, I didn’t worry, I figured no pain then I am okay.
Yesterday we got a update on mom telling us the spot in her lung had grown, they hadn’t known about the other things. I guess they did a full body scan on mom so know they know. Today my husband was informed that they found spots in the Pancrous. Now we know this is bad because spots in more then one place is not a good thing.
Tomorrow they will be doing a boispy of her lung. I am so stressed out by everything. Yesterday I was surprised when the Doctor told me my blood pressure was a healthy normal and was the lowest reading in 3 years. That is a good thing I guess, maybe my dietary changes have actually done me a lot of good and maybe not taking my asthma meds how I should has help. I know one of my meds causes that trouble, not a good side effect. I got home last night, and decided I would rest.
Today I woke up and i was so stiff that I couldn’t walk, it hurt to walk, or sit or just about anything. I decided to take the day off, workman comp will not pay for it but I rather take the day off today. I don’t need the rest of the week and honestly I am surprised I didn’t just go in today.
I did not have anything broken when is a good thing, not something my husband and I could handle right now.