Just Pass Me By

On my way home for my hubby and my date night I was shocked at what I saw. Seeing the lady walk her dogs wasn’t the shocking thing at all, but it was what the dogs where wearing that shocked me. They had Diapers on the dogs, so why even bother walking them outside, not like they need to be outside with diapers on. They will make a mess in there and well guess it going to have to be cleaned up one way or another.
Now had I seen this person walking with a shovel for cleaning up the mess or poop bags or other stuff similar to it, that would not have been shocking it would be like using
yakima racks but not using it for what it was meant to be use for then wondering why it not working correctly.
I had to look twice to make sure my eyes were not playing any tricks on me.

Let me start by saying sorry if this offends anyone who Muslin, but I am getting frustrated with some things that are happening when I walk my dog. I live in a building where dogs are not allowed without special circumstances. We have a mental health dog for dad, we had to fight to get her here. Now what I would like to know from the Muslims is what is best having a dog that your father in law, whose 88 in a few days to help him be mentally stable. This is the last dog him and mom got together, so taking the dog away is like taking something his wife gave him and one of the only things he was able to keep. So should I seriously take away his dog! Because someone religion tells them it bad to have a dog. Sorry G-d created Dogs too, and I bet G-d loves his creation even if they are unclean! I get it I know dogs are not considered a clean animal at least not to eat. I am not eating her, and she is not going to last in the wild so it would be wrong to abandon her. I am sorry if you moved to this country you have to expect some of our beliefs are going to be different and you cannot make someone else follow your rules.
What gives you the right to scream at me or my dog who have not done anything to you. I keep her on a short leash when I know someone out who Muslim because I do not want the dog jumping on the person. When asked by a child who I know is Muslim I tell the child you need to have your parents tell me it is okay. I am considerate of your beliefs, to a point where I can meet my dad needs yet you’re not considerate to my dog or me.
So I ask what is best take away my hubby father’s dog because someone religious belief. I might as well hand dad a box cutter and tell him here play with this, I mean taking his dog would be the same results. I wouldn’t give him a box cutter to play with, so why would I take away his dog. It his last thing he has from his wife of 55 years. How would it feel if you lost something your wife or husband gave you that was the last thing they gave you and someone from a other culture came to you and told you, you can’t have it or always screamed when you had out your dog. How would it feel if you was in my shoes. It takes forever for me to calm the dog, once she scared because someone screamed at her. When that happens and hubby has her the dog doesn’t calm she just wants to come back in to me and dad.
Yes I have grown attached to the dog, it hard not to grow attached to something when you feed it, groom it and take care of it’s needs.
Now I do want to say thank you to a few Muslim who have actually took the time to ask me. Why I am breaking the rules, and understanding when I explain to them it for my father in law. I am not mad when I get asked question and explain why. This doesn’t bother me it’s the scream and rudeness that bugs me.
When dad did not have his dog at first when living here, he often talked of killing himself. Since the dog been here he hasn’t spoke about killing himself and giving up, unless he trying to piss us kids off. We got to the point of hiding things where he could hurt himself, so I don’t know maybe I am frustrated with people being rude and not taking the time to find out why.

Last night my knee hurt bad enough where I didn’t want to cook dinner, so I asked hubby to cook it for me. I think it’s only fair he can cook a few meals. I hate that he leaves the stove while browning the meat but oh well as long as he don’t burn down the apartment and make himself look like a plastic knobs. He did pretty good at making dinner but you cannot mess up a box dinner, or at least you have to try to do it.
Normally when I make them I add seasoning to the meat, he didn’t yet his tasted very salty last night, I wonder why. Maybe he wasn’t honest that he added a ton of salt or what have you, he tends to over season or salt things. But sometimes those box dinners are very salty, and maybe that was what it was. At least he cooked dinner, to bad he didn’t walk the dog this morning.

Find me if you can, and when you do I am just going to meow at you, I am hiding. My cat been doing that a lot lately like trying to play hiding seek with me. Then he makes me have to find him and get him out. Lately his place is hiding inside of the hideaway bed. Man he needs a bath he smelling like cat litter. He getting heavy to maybe I should see if
http://www.weightlosswand.com has anything for him. Otis is a good cat, and he back sitting by the window looking at me meowing. I already carried him over here once, he can stay there, not getting up again for him. My knee hurts and he just being a pill.
He been following me around everywhere since I got him, hopefully he minds himself and don’t trip me, last thing I need is to fall down. I might not get back up. I love my cat he likes to talk and play find me and then I make you work to get to me.

Today I will say was not a good day… It started good, and within 30 minutes of working, I ended up needing to go and see the doctor. It was me or the kid and I choice the kid. My knee is all bruised up and now I have to go and see the specialist in a week. My tendons are a little over stretched. It hurts to walk on it and I am in an immobilizer when walking. At least nothing was broken; the knee would not be a good place to break. They are starting to do x-rays digitally wonder how big their
video cards are there to get this information.
Well, I was simply walking my kid over to a window that showed our reflection wanting to get a reaction guess I gave him a fun ride. I kept from landing on him but landed with all my weight on my knee. At least my work will cover the injuries and expenses but I feel bad.

Some days we have to treat dad like a child. I understand he likes the casino, and it can be fun. I would have loved to leave him stay and play but no change of clothes. Dad sometimes loses control of his body. I understand this but he cannot sit in it. Dad when he felt he might need to go potty decided, to wait a little too long, and had a accident. When I told him then we need to go home and come back. He told me no and tried yelling at me. I texted my hubby who was in the potty and told him, what had happened. He came out and told Dad either we leave now, and come back tonight or tomorrow after you clean up or we do not come back to casino for a month.
Dad did the typical I am going to lash out at the girl. So I told him you’re the one who decided to **** on yourself, and I didn’t say we couldn’t come back. I said we needed to go home because it not okay for your to sit in your ****.. He got mad at me. I got annoyed with him. If he would just not argue and come with right away we could have made a trip back out right away. I know I found the
cheapest car insurance in my area, but I am not sure they would cover my car interior for damage at least none got on the seat or in the car.
Maybe it time to start considering options if dad is going to wait too long to go potty.
I know it’s embarrassing to him, and I don’t always handle things like this well. I love him, I care about him and sometimes he thinks I am horrible because I feel we need to do things a certain way for his best interest. So looks like Thursday we will go to the casino with dad and hopefully he will have a good night.

Today I was a little frustrated with traffic. This is putting it nicely. Just seemed like no one wanted to drive nicely or in their lane. For some reason they thought it would be nice to make me squishy with them. At least I avoided any accidents, better then yesterday when I ran over a stupid squirrel. I like to know why squirrels think they can out run a car. Normally I am able to avoid them. Today on my way home, traffic was a lot better, the only interesting thing I saw was a guy hauling a hot top with no
hot tub covers man the thing was as big as one of the lanes of traffic, it was huge. Someone going to be lucky but I am not sure right now I would want to be in a hot tub maybe a tub of ice would be nice.
There is so much construction around our area that driving sometimes is not pleasant. When all you want to do is pass a person going 20 miles in a 35 mile zone its frustrating to be down to one lane.

I have learned something recently, and I am glad I learned it. I have to say I wish my father in law doctor had shared this information with me. He knows I work with Autistic children so it is not too far of a jump to figure I would understand the term Sensory integration, and that it would do dad some good. Sensory integration is doing activity which deal with the different senses. This can help them feel better, and happier and involved. The problem is if you just leave them sit at home and do nothing this allows them to become depressed, but if you get them playing with something like ball that lights up, play doh, puzzles, or art type projects, soft balls and other things like it will help. Now the thing is with some people you can’t give them things that normally children would enjoy because they might not want to do it. The way I handle this problem is by doing some of the activities with dad, and this makes him happy.
I will say I was shocked how happy he was just by simply throwing a ball back and forth did it for a half hour the other day. Yesterday we got him a bowling ball set, and we played that together and he enjoyed that too.
The thing is with Alzheimer’s yes it is horrible to deal with but when they are in their right mind it is hard for them not to be involved in our lives especially when they live in the same home. Dad likes to go to casino, I guess he gets plenty of sensory input there with all the lights and sounds.
Today we got some paint and color by number which he seemed interested in doing so it will be nice to see how well he likes it once he gets started. I wish the doctor would have told us about doing something like this sooner, and not find out through someone who not a doctor. So keeping them involved in simple tasks they are able to do is the key to keeping them happy.

Have you ever noticed people sometimes mean well but they do not understand what you are going through. I have received advice on how to deal with dad from people who have no clue what it is to live with my Father in Law. I find myself sometimes frustrated with people thinking oh you can work full time and leave dad alone. The greatest one is well maybe your dad could go and work at McDonalds, give me a break he 88 almost and can barely hold his balance it would be like him trying to sale
www.weightlossdrink.org door to door. Dad wouldn’t remember his task.
Dad has been retired, I get dad needs to do something during the day. I get I need a break but this isn’t a safe break. I know people mean well but you know if they haven’t dealt with it they don’t know. They don’t know what it like to wake up at 2 or 3 in the morning with dad trying to leave the house and go somewhere. They have no clue about the fear of what if he gets out of the house and I don’t wake up. He might get ran over because we have a main road. These fear haven’t happened yet and they may never happen but there are always there. The other fear is we can leave Dad with a friend but what if he cusses at them or makes a pass at their wife or girl friend. How do you explain something like this to people without experience.

I have now been out of school for 6 months, and I want to go back for my Master in Counseling or Social work. I wish I could get some of my counseling degree completed partly with a online degree would make it easier for me to complete my education. I completed my bachelors using Online, flexnet and campus at a extension campus at the UOP so I want to stay there I had a great experience there and do not want to leave it. I guess my options are to wait a long time for them to start their program or to find another school.
I stay in touch with one of the Alumni people from the school, and we talk sometimes but I just want to get it start and done. I want to start doing what I feel I ought to be doing for a career.