Just Pass Me By

I know what I would like to do on leap year is go to a Leap Year 24 Hour Sale for musicians. Yep, I would get some stuff I have always wanted and replace a few things I left behind, that I gave away. One item is my keyboard, but I hardly played it back home and don’t miss it too much. I would buy an amp for my guitar since my old one got threw out. I am not sure who tossed it but someone did.
I was able to find a temporary replacement for my guitar that I have included in a picture. This is the thing that I miss the most that had to be left behind. What I should have done is told the person who packed the top of my car the guitar is a must go item, I can’t be without it. The first few months here was hard on me because I didn’t have my outlet and needed it.
So this would be the one sale it money was no object that I would like to be involved in. Just to get things I need for my guitar once I get it back and to replace for attachment to computer. Hopefully in a few weeks I will be able to give my friend money for postage and insurance.

I have done 3 practicum site visit, so I am halfway done. I have managed to catch a cold, and haven’t been feeling good since the end of this week. I am wondering if maybe I caught something from them, because it was the end of the week I started feeling not so well. I love it there it has been a great experience for me. I get a long with almost everyone there, and enjoy the clients there. Since it downtown and parking is insane I take the train. Now the train okay that sometimes a unsettling experience.

I wonder why it is I worked with children all last year almost and now I work here get exposed to similar stuff and catch something. It could be allergies since things are growing, but this feels a little differently. To bad house cleaning services holly springs nc is now where near me I could use some house work done and don’t have the time or energy for it.

I worry about my internship because my practicum site was impossible to find.

So we moved and got a totally free checking account this past summer. This week we get a letter saying there is a $5.00 a month charge if we don’t keep the acount balance at 500$ a day. I have to stay this doesn’t sounds very free to me. I am doing good with what little money I have and don’t need no banks taking away more money. I am so tried of banks doing stuff like this. They get enough of people money through atm fees, overdraft fees, and other fees they don’t need a extra $5 a month from me. I haven’t over drawn any of the accounts yet, but still I know lots of people do that. Maybe its time to look at the local credit union.

Dad has lately if he worried I am leaving for the day or for any amount of time. He will keep me up all night. He did this last week. I am trying to fulfill my practicum hrs. Once a week I am gone for 10 hrs. My husband is home to make sure dad needs are met. Dad seems to think I have to stay home and if I go out anywhere, he tries to keep me up all night, arguing with my husband and I the day before, and being a real turd. Last week he did this I decided no going out to eat even though this is something he likes to do once a week. I do not mind taking him out to eat but seriously I am so done rewarding his bad behavior because he thinks I have to stay home with him 24/7.
Today he behaving better he hasn’t tried to pick a argument today. He been pretty good. So maybe he be good overnight. I still need to get him a new shirt from when they cut his off him. Maybe since every time he see a motor cycle I should see if I can get something from Olympia Motorcycle Gear.

I have been paying off US Bank not for 59 months and my last payment is the end of this month. I am so excited I will never have to deal with them again. Trust me this is a good thing. Next on my list is to start paying off my medical expenses from when I broke my foot. I need to try to find a part-time job after my practicum is over. But I am happy. I hope to never deal with US Bank again, and I will probably never bank with them again.

Our apartment is very small, I like keyboard but I like guitars a little more. I can play both, and enjoy both. I ended up finally getting something to play this week after months of nothing. I am so glad. I didn’t need a boss gt 6 because mine is acoustic. However I seen them before and now how to work them if needed. I like acoustic guitars for some reason. Old fashion is nice.

Man, I am tired. This weekend wasn’t good. Lets see I blogged about what happened on Friday night. Dad took a fall, he was okay. Sunday dad fall asleep on the couch and his heart rate had dropped seriously low. He started aspirating and not responding to me. I was very concerned about him, normally I can rouse Dad from his sleep but couldn’t and he was puking. I was able to get him in a position that he could puke up with out coking on it or worst. The EMT came right away! I will say Clackamas County EMTS and Fire department I am impressed with they got here very fast. They had to shock dad heart to get it beating at a pace that was good. So Now I am once again behind in my practicum class, and have fallen behind in my social cultural class, and I am exhausted and have no concentration.
I responded to Dad issues in probably under a minute, within a minute from that my husband was calling 911 and very quickly they came. I am starting to wonder how much more stress I can take in this set of classes before i simply break down.
I normally do not cry but Sunday I just couldn’t stop from crying. I was scared for dad. By the time we got to the ER and was let in Dad was off the machine and heart rate was normal. They kept him for 2 nights because he had a similar episode overnight the first night. They took him off the beta blockers and told us low fat/low sodium diet. Okay I can do that no problem, because I already do that at home. This weekend I really realized how many things I gave up since moving her. Now I would still do this again, but if I could go back I would have brought my guitar with me. It my outlet that I really need.
Dad came home today from the hospital you know, I didn’t sleep good while he was at the hospital, but I felt a lot better that they had a thing on his bed to indicate he gotten up. I was worried he might fall there at the hospital. I have to say I am impressed with the hospital too.

Last night we had to call 911 for dad. He fall in the bathroom and we couldn’t get him up. He was trying to sleep on the floor and was just not very responsive. The nice thing the dispatcher lift me go right away probably figuring we had everything under control and he was breathing. This is a good thing, and she left me get off my cellphone. Yeah I don’t want to see my cell phone bill oh well. The fire department removed my door in the bathroom. My husband told me to call maint and have them do it. Why do it, I mean I know how to fix it. Just like my guitar teacher is able to teach cords as long as the person has hands to learn with, and it kindof similar. I just had to align the door.

Wow it’s raining and you know it bad when a small dog sinks into the mud. Yep the dog is sinking in the mud. I know I do not want to venture far into any of the yards around here. I did the other day and almost slipped thank goodness I had one foot on concrete. It’s amazing how slippery the grassy areas are, almost as bad as snow but not quiet.

I don’t even bother asking him who I am when my husband talking to him and he’s confused as to who I am. He sometimes thinks I am one of his wives either x or mom. I love dad and it painful to watch my husband dad go through this. I call his dad, dad, his parents accepted me from day one. It didn’t matter anything about my past or where I had came from they showed me love, and respect as their daughter inlaw. The first night I met them they told me my husband misses up they would adopt me then he couldn’t have me at all. It made me feel wanted and the L-rd knows I needed that kind of acceptance. Now with dad Alzhiemers I don’t think he is who I used to know. He not as friendly any more, and he seems more angry. He gets confused as to where he is at and who he is with, or where he is living. The other night he told me he had to go home, so I had to tell him he was at home and go back to bed.
This is a horrible desease dad has and it not like you can put a teflon hose in the brain and cure it. There is no real known reason for Alzhiemers, we do know the brain shrinks with age, but it similar according to the doctor last night. What I would like to understand is why do some people get it and why do some people just lose some of there faculties. I really think I need my guitar soon I need a outlet to relieve stress. I am glad I had a friend to go out with this week and get out of the house.